Monday, December 15, 2008

Caleb's Memorial

Tomorrow is Caleb's memorial for my family. I spent today writing his eulogy and crying my eyes out. I'm so tired of hurting. I always said I would be sad later, but I didn't know that I would have to be sad as soon as he was born.

I did get to spend the entire day with him and I was so happy that I even got that. It's just that tomorrow hasn't even happened yet and it's a worse day than the day I lost him.

All I ask is that tomorrow my family be in your thoughts and prayers that we will have the strength to get through it. Especially for me, and it's only because I have to read the eulogy. I will have that posted as well as pictures from the balloon release scheduled for 1:51PM, the time he was born to Heaven.


Nicole said...

You don't know me, but I know your situation all too well. I just came across your blog a few days ago, and I apologize that this is my first post. I will be in your shoes in less than a few weeks. I am expecting a baby boy with Trisomy 18. My heart breaks with you. Your son is absolutely beautiful! You're a wonderful Mommy, and I'll be thinking of you tomorrow.

Love, Nicole

The Pittsburgh Hites said...

You will be in my heart and prayers tomorrow. I read Caleb's obituary tonight, and my heart broke when I read his service was tomorrow. With the distance and weather there is no possible way for me to make it all the way out there and back in time for my daughter's Christmas play.
If you don't mind, we'll send Caleb a balloon from home though.
Keep your chin up, and let those tears flow, you just lost your son, and nothing else is more important than Caleb right now!
Life will continue, take some time for you. If you need anything, ANYTHING at all, even just to talk, you have my number...
All my prayers.

Nicole said...

You've been on my mind the last few days, but you will especially be in my prayers today. I can't even imagine how hard this day will be for you. {{{HUGS}}}

Much love, Nicole